January 13, 2012

  • 1 month

    Boaz’s favorite things are nursing, swinging in the swing (when I can’t hold him or my back starts to hurt from the MOBY), sleeping snuggled right next to me in bed (he really can’t get any closer, or can he!?), and taking baths. I can’t say he’s slipped into family life “unnoticed” as some of the other kids did which is perfectly fine and even appreciated by Gabe (he claims he didn’t get the chance to ‘know’ Sophia or especially Liam until they were around 8-9 months). Boaz likes to make himself known and often needs every ounce of help falling asleep AND staying asleep.

    Four at times seems downright CRAZY! We definitely have those WILD moments, but just as quickly as the chaos breaks out, the storm settles and peace is restored. After having a baby I always set expectations LOW (if any at all besides keeping everyone alive!) so when a day (or several in a row I’m finding the more I’m at it) comes and I actually have some “free” time to go above and beyond to ease back into some school with Asher, clean and organize a closet or room, vacuum and wash the floors, have dinner ready with an inviting house presentable for when Gabe walks through the door, or even start a little kitchen cabinet face lift, I realize the GRACE HE provides to do my job and do it well is one to be noted. It’s touching really. I’m not left to fulfill this much needed and demanding role of SO many things on my own. Praise the Lord, because otherwise some mornings, I don’t think I’d venture out of bed for what I KNOW awaits me! I really don’t know how moms do it without knowing Jesus!

    The kids LOVE Boaz (Bo or Bo-Bo more precisely!). The ease of adding another unique individual to the family unit never ceases to amaze me. Family is SO much a part of God’s plan. The love and acceptance of another soul by the others is always touching this mama’s heart!

    I really intended this post to just be a photo of Boaz at 1 month on the yellow “parlor” chair. So much for that, you got an update too! I’d like to do one of him on it each month. I love the progression of change each month. It’s really just a chance for me to savor them this little while I can!

January 6, 2012

  • more pics for the grandparents!

    It might be another month or so before family gets to see Boaz or even meet him for the first time! Every day this little guy changes! Gabe comes home some days and comments on his noticeably different appearance even from the day before. I know it goes SO quickly. When I can remember to think of it and enjoying being “in the moment” isn’t more important!, I snap a few pics to capture these fleeting and precious moments of newborn-ness. Someday I know I will be happy I did!

    Gabe is such a good daddy and loves his babies!
    “Where my babies at?!” are usually the first words out of his mouth the second he comes through the door.

    Sophia is SUCH a mommy and BIG help to me! If it were up to her and Boaz allowed for it (sometimes he gets too fussy!) she’d opt to hold him ALL DAY LONG!

    Sophia sporting her new bangs!

    Healthy happy babes! WHAT a blessing!

December 27, 2011

  • past few days in pictures…

    I will stick to pictures since I am not sure if what I wrote would be very coherent at this point!

    Asher and Sophia see Boaz after a 10 day “vacation” between both sets of grandparents!

    Christmas Eve: After service cookie decorating and eating party!

    Girls ooh and aw over baby Boaz

    I eat cookies with milk which help feed Boaz’s double chin!

    Christmas Day!

    As good as we can get at this point! 4 babies!

    Gabe is home this week and we have him ALL to ourselves! It’s already going TOO fast!

December 21, 2011

  • a birth story for Boaz…

    This past week has been very strange for us, for me. Tuesday, someone decided it was time to be born. In a matter of hours things were  moving quickly into play. Kids brought to a friend’s house, friends showing up, Regina (my midwife) walking in the door mid contraction, and myself still in denial that this was somehow “it”. Isn’t that how it usually happens? (the denial part!)

    This time though the whole experience was so different. Gabe and I were finding ourselves completely out of sync. YET, because we were in a very familiar setting it naturally felt comfortable. We had the system down pretty well in the hospital, but this was new. This was such a different experience, and one I can’t say enough positive things about!

    I haven’t left the house since the Sunday before Boaz was born. His first moments were experienced right here in our home!

    Tuesday, I woke up pretty sure my water had broke or was in the process. A couple trips to the bathroom confirmed so! Gabe decided to stay home from work even though contractions didn’t start for several more hours. We both knew once things did start to happen it probably wouldn’t be long! Quick calls to Regina and the assistant were made to give them a heads up. Friends who would be attending were also notified. Unlike Asher’s labor where things started very quickly and INTENSELY right after my water broke, this one reminded me of Sophia’s labor. Gradual, bearable to start with, and really rather enjoyable while I hurried around the house getting things together for the older kids. I knew they’d be leaving for the day and even several days thereafter to grandparents’ houses.

    Contractions started to come very mildly and sporadically around 10:30ish. The first friend arrived and started timing contractions. Gabe left to take the kids to a friends house. I called Regina at 11:30 to tell her the progress. Contractions were coming every 4-5 minutes lasting 40 seconds to a little over a minute. She wanted to come and set up seeming to know it wouldn’t be long. She got here around noon. The place was bustling with set-up, lunch for the crew/attendees, and myself enjoying the whole process. I was walking between contractions and stopping for the always needed back rub once they hit.

    Around 1:30 (I do remember looking at the clock because I knew my mom would be there soon!) things took a turn for the more difficult. Lunch was quickly cleaned up and cleared out. I noticed it got EXTREMELY quiet. Everyone seemed to follow my lead as if I knew what I was doing. Can I just say, I was following my body’s lead even though in my head I was battling the next phase I KNEW was coming!!! Mind over matter. Lots of praying it would be a quick and healthy delivery were the only things going  through my head as well as getting/breathing through each contraction.

    No longer able to stand and lean up against the island or table I found myself migrating to the couch leaning over it on the ground for a bit. How cool to do what I wanted when I wanted to do it and no one bothered me! Finally I felt ready for the last place to find myself, (the desired place to give birth, I remember thinking I AM ALMOST THERE!!!) the chair in the middle of the room with Gabe sitting in it and myself leaning over him on the ground.

    I pushed for maybe 10 minutes, Regina said. This was a little longer than Liam’s, and I definitely felt it. This was due to the fact that the cord was wrapped around his neck. I’ve never been able to preform such control in the process but something about hearing and listening to Regina’s CALM voice and coaching and the fact my baby needed me to wait was enough to keep me in the game. Last push and he was out looking very blue and waiting till the tail end of allotted time to finally scream. Though scream he finally did!

    Boaz Keith was born at 2:11 pm, Tuesday December 13, 2011. Weighing 8 pounds 9 ounces and measuring 21 3/4 inches in length.

    I was given several hours to start contracting on my own to shrink my uterus back down to size. I was by no means hemorrhaging; however, I could tell the midwives did not like how much I was still bleeding and how soft my uterus was remaining. After talking through my options, I was given Cytotec under my tongue to dissolve to start contractions which would then allow my body to finish the job.

    Within minutes of dissolving, my throat started to feel sore and scratchy. I had to lay down on the couch as I found myself immediately back in what felt like transition having to breath and focus on yet again, contractions! At the time I found myself really needing to breath deep, I noticed my throat starting to feel “tight”. I told Regina and she sat by me on the couch as we waited it out. I never had trouble breathing. I just certainly didn’t like what I was feeling. At the time, Gabe and my dad had left to go pick up the kids and friends were cleared out. It was just my mom, the midwives, and me. I was really wishing Gabe was there!

    Regina never seemed concerned (though I’m sure it was something on her radar). Her body language and demeanor never changed from her calm and collected self. I totally fed off of her. Looking back I can’t say that would have been the case with my former OB. Who is to say an ultrasound late in pregnancy revealing this “obstructive cord” wouldn’t have warranted a c-section? I feel privileged to have delivered with Regina, yes! She is a cavern of great wisdom and intuition, major things lost from the field now. However, we also know God was very much upon this delivery and the occurrences thereafter. 

    Finally, the contractions and tight feeling throat subsided. Luckily, Regina had only given me a VERY low dose of Cytotec (200 mg instead of the recommended 600 mg!). I obviously had some sort of allergic reaction to it. As a result, I also developed a low grade fever that progressed to 100 degrees. Thankfully it went no higher seeing as 101 was her cut off for the “next step”.

    Once everything was where she felt comfortable ie… bleeding, uterus, temperature, Regina finally left around 9 o’clock. That night was a bit rough due to afterbirth pains which, just as they say, get worse with each delivery. However, it was SO nice to be in my OWN bed where no one came in to wake me to check me, take my blood pressure, or temperature when I did FINALLY fall asleep, if only for a little bit. I felt SO spoiled!

    Regina came back that next day around 5 to check me and Boaz. She also came back on Friday and basically just oohed and awed over Boaz with me for several hours. I won’t see her now until my 6 week check-up, again, never leaving my house. She comes right here and basically just “hangs out”! What OB does that?!?! I have nothing against OBs. I just have never heard of any who have the time!

    Asher and Sophia have been gone since Tuesday night. I really miss them and am anticipating their arrival home on Friday! Gabe is as well. However, this time to just sit, nurse, and rest has been an extreme blessing. Not to mention the kids are having a complete ball and when asked if they are ready to come home the answer is, “Not yet!”

    Gabe and I have a list of ongoing prayer requests. A healthy baby and successful home birth were both on this list. God answered both! We give Him all the honor and glory for this awesome experience and the healthy new son we call Boaz!

    pictures from the day:

    Gabe checking out the contraction app on the i-pad!


    While I was like this…


    Gabe was like that!


    Things starting to progress, though I don’t really look it! I know because I put that different shirt on!


    Hanging out in between.


    Setting up


    Final set-up!


    DONE!


    Grampy (Keith!) and Grammy see Boaz. Mom missed the birth by 2 minutes!


    Regina

December 6, 2011

  • why we celebrate the way we do…

     

    Our days have been something really peaceful as of late. I know this is just the calm before the storm of no longer having a routine I’m familiar with, and so, I am making every effort to enjoy it, notice it, thrive in it, and love it while it lasts! Soon a new precious and completely helpless little life will be born and I will then be MORE than happy (and even ready!) to throw routine and “the norm” to the wayside in return for nursing, sitting, snuggling, and just “being” here at home as a new routine inevitable develops. I love that about life and having a new baby. It just happens on its own. No sense in rushing it. All in due time.

    Our home is decorated for Christmas. Candles are on and in full flame as long as I’m up and about. I know Christmas is not about this and that, the hussle and bussle of life and parties (though really fun!), and yet there is something about the traditions we’ve started, the special things we do as a family that help to point us to the “why” we celebrate this month like none other.

    Asher and Sophia will without hesitation tell you Santa is NOT real (with such authority I have NO idea where they got it from!) and what all of “this” is really about. There couldn’t be a warmer fuzzier feeling in my heart knowing my children can get excited about cookies and decorating them, stringing popcorn with me to hang on the mantel, and anticipating the next festivity all while remembering why “all this” is even so special in the first place. Jesus! We have a reason to celebrate, string lights outside (Gabe!), set up decor, treasure traditions with our families, fellowship and have parties with friends. And the kids eat it up! I eat it up! Jesus gets quite the birthday treatment around here.

    While tucking Asher and Sophia in bed last night, Asher called me over one last time to his side of the room and said, “We are really blessed aren’t we? I have a home, and a mom and a dad, and a family, and a nice warm bed, and I know it came from God.”

    And we are a blessed people. Whether we know it or not. That a God would look down on us, in our state of sin (having not arrived yet or perfect in any way shape or form) have pity on our lives, and send his own Son to make a way to be restored and reconciled to Him is a love like none other.

    I am thankful to know a love like this. To ponder on it and revel in it all while enjoying the slower more tired pace I find myself in naturally at 38 weeks pregnant. With this season life slows down a bit. Peace and comfort is so apparent. The kids play quietly. I sit to read to them or play a game with them. There is time and special purpose to just “be”.

    Sophia is either Maid Marian from Robin Hood or Mary herself here (can’t remember) but they are her favorite dress-up choices lately.

    Yesterday was a rude awakening for me: I now have to really try in order to win, and I still lose! Asher has now officially gained “Memory Championship” title, so far every time we play! He’s quite thrilled about this as you can imagine!
    Such a little Gabe! I love it! Although, Gabe stinks at memory. At least I can still always beat him!

December 4, 2011

November 30, 2011

  • while we wait for baby…

      
    Thanks Grammy for our new Spider Man math curriculum! Asher finished his K math for the year already so we’ve moved on to some fun “fillers” for the time being.

    What these two clowns came up with while Asher and I tackle “Green Goblin” and “Electro”??
    I’m learning a lot here too mind you! I absolutely LOVE Sophia’s choice for clothes mixed with an Incredible Hulk “tat” (tattoo) as she calls them. Every day it’s tights and a dress. I don’t even think she has a pair of pants in her drawer!

    We’re back after a FULL Thanksgiving away with family. Top on my radar now: Christmas decor and squaring away last minute shopping as well as home birth supplies. I have nothing together or purchased for the birth that I can’t already find here at home, somewhere I am told! My instincts keep telling me that although babies usually come late they also ‘could’ come early.

     Regina came last night for a check-up and to drop off the “equipment”. Now it sits in my closet with an oxygen tank and it’s all becoming a bit more real! Can you sense my feeling of urgency? (note sarcasm) I think I’ll finally get out sometime next week. I believe I am more pleased with the fact I didn’t gain a single ounce over the Thanksgiving break. Between 2 VERY LARGE feasts, I literally just sat and ate the whole time.

    This time to prepare is now the fun part, mixed with (I’ll be honest) moments of (including though NOT limited to) sheer terror/feeling like I’m going to throw up/hyperventilate/poop my pants when I really stop and think about it.  Good thing I’m so busy/too tired to actually have any time to process it all! I love labor. I do! But it IS just that, LABOR.

    So thankful I get to do this at home with the prize being a new baby. A new member to this family! How wonderful is that?!

November 18, 2011

  • Asher is 5!

    Today our Asher turns 5! I just seem to accept the fact my “baby” is 2 and 5 days later my first “baby” turns 5! Talk about a lot for this momma! and daddy! Our kids are growing up and although we’re LOVING who they are becoming with each and every older and passing year, it’s just well, sentimental too!

    This baby was so beautiful to me! I couldn’t get over how beautiful he really was just moments after birth. I guess I was just planning on one of those alien looking/only cute to the parents babies, but I remember Gabe and I were both completely SHOCKED with how cute he really was! I guess we both were just planning on the worst. “How could the 2 of us come up with something so stinkin’ cute” was our thinking!

    Asher’s first Christmas. I can’t help but notice in ALL pictures of me and Asher how happy I am. Look how happy I am! Not that I was not happy before, but wow I remember feeling and knowing SO strongly I was doing exactly what I was supposed to be doing in being a mom! I loved every moment of it, and can honestly say, still do!

    Happy again!

     

    The mom in me just wants to hold this one and never let him get a inch taller. The heart in me knows he’s too special to keep at home forever just for us. I love Asher’s heart. His sweetness. His desire to please all the time and do the right thing. I love him! My heart just bursts for him. I am completely honored and taken a back when I think that somehow the Lord saw ME fit (with His help and guidance) to be his mom. I like who this boy is becoming and I anticipate and look forward to knowing who he will become as a man, and a man of God at that!

    Tonight Asher will take a trip to the store with Gabe to pick out his choice of cereal for breakfast tomorrow which is SUCH a BIG DEAL! We’re REALLY celebrating tomorrow since it’s Saturday, Gabe will be home, and family and cousins will come to join in a special gathering and celebration of BOTH boys!

November 16, 2011

November 13, 2011

  • Liam Oliver is 2

     

    Hours before labor started I finished painting the inside and outside of our front door. The bulk of our major house renovation was finally done and little cosmetic things still remained (they still do!). 8 days past my due date allowed for us to finish more than was anticipated in that department as well as enjoy some MUCH needed down time in a livable and comfortable space. I knew the Lord did that just for me! You can imagine some major nesting took place!

    Liam! I remember how I felt the moment I found out I was pregnant with him. Peace. Such peace. Such elements of promise and peace spoken to my soul in very specific ways from a very real and caring God are marked and remembered and still treasured to this day during Liam’s pregnancy. Even though others looked on and questioned just how close Sophia and “this one” would be were always outweighed in my heart by a God who is in control and knows. One that I can trust to the point that it doesn’t matter what it looks like or how crazy it all may appear. All for a life that I got to be the one to carry with a purpose and destiny was enough to blow my mind away, every single time.

    Fast labor. 3 hours! Fast though just as awful! I even remember thinking this had gotten progressively worse and I didn’t ever want to do that again! (Here we are again!) Easy baby. SO easy. He never really cried. I even remember thinking something was wrong with him in the hospital! A little whimper let me know he was hungry and that was about it!

    This baby turning small boy is precious to our hearts. Precious to mine. And even more precious to the One who created him and loves him entirely more than we ever could!

    Model pose?! He loves his siblings!