February 13, 2012

• 2 months...

  1 month

  

  Today! 2 months

  

  

  

  

  We love this baby!

  Boaz has definitely turned over a new leaf. He still sleeps ungodly amounts during the day, but his awake times are more pleasant and longer lasting. I've even caught him asleep on the ground (having forgotten about him after a diaper change!) with no fussing preceding. Sigh. Just a reminder my new baby is growing up. The sleeping most of the day away really works to my advantage as life with 3 rambunctious and WILD animals must go on. I said to Gabe last night, "What exactly did we do before we put the cushions to the old bamboo couch on the floor in the basement for them to go crazy on!?"

  I am still VERY much in the process of reevaluating and fine tuning the day and routine and how to make it better. And yet every part of my being KNOWS it's more important to reevaluate and fine tune attitudes. Especially mine. It's just one big work in progress here, and I really AM thankful to be able to teach the kids more about having a good attitude as opposed to having the perfect day. Those don't exist by the way. And the start to a perfect day doesn't mean I made my bed or got dressed before 9am, or really anything that I accomplished.

  The 'best' days I'm finding (besides the ones where my bed never actually got made and I lived in my sweatpants until I went back to bed at night) are sometimes the hardest days because things surfaced that desperately needed to and therefore got dealt with. One hoarding feelings of bitterness learned the importance of forgiveness. Another saw the gift that repentance and restoration of a relationship is to both parties. Or more times than not, the kids saw me at my worst and...Oh, Mom really needs Jesus too! And this is how you seek forgiveness and grace from the only One who can sufficiently give it. And with His help we can give forgiveness and grace to others. And, WOW, I really love you! I just saw Jesus in your face or in that action or in that choice!

  Honestly, if at the end of the day it seemed to run a tad bit too...smoothly? I'm wondering what was missed or maybe what didn't get brought to a head. That's not to say I am laying my head down at night in a worrisome and frenzied state. Quite the contrary. I don't think Gabe and I can fall asleep fast enough! It is however a reminder the task is great, the responsibility HUGE, and thankfully the Lord that much bigger! It's an area not to be taken lightly and with lack of diligence. It's those things that, for me, can ALWAYS be reevaluated. And it's always a new day, always. Or a new start to the day no matter what time it is. Attitudes and perspective are key.

  Mine being on the forefront.

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